Courage

Summon your courage, and tell me that you want me, and then I shall unleash the torrent of emotion that is within.

For the trickles and droplets just won't do. They neither nourish the crops nor let em die a natural death. If it must rain, let it pour, for what is life if not for the rainbows in a thunderstorm?

THIS IS LIFE, LIVE IT !

I am the commander of my destiny =)

Sailing forth with confidence...I shall never waver...

=)

I am happy now =) though a lil lonely. But still happy =)

I love you...though you'll probably never read this...and you might never even ever love me back...

But this post will be my silent testimony...blowing in the wind for all to see...

I wish you will be happy always, and maybe someday you might see something special out of the mess that is me =) but even if that day is never, I will be here for you forever.

Why

Why not answer my questions, tell me the truth...why play these selfish games? I give nothing less than everything, get nothing, all I'm asking for is answers...maybe the value that I offer is to great that an answer might cause too much loss, yet I hope not to have to view people with such cynical and calculative glasses. Is it true that playing with all cards open is a dominated strategy? But I have no ego and hence nothing to dominate. One day, they will understand me. But I fear that time may be too late for me. Make no compromise from that which you know is right. I shall have to grit my teeth and carry on for a bit. Fuck.

On love and life

Life, this game that we play as animals. Human beings we call ourselves superior to mere fauna, but truly what different are we? We are expected to display dominance, never to appear weak, to truly be an arsehole to demonstrate the survival of the fittest, in order to attract a mate. Fucking animals. You might have thought us enlightened beings would have outgrown these foolish games. You might have thought in this new world age love and unity would be the universal language. Dost they not know, that love conquers all? Dost they not know, that the most powerful are not the cowards who pretend to have no weaknesses, but those who embrace and acknowledge their weaknesses? Dost they not know, that the most courageous are not the idiots who pretend that they have no fear, but those who love with all their hearts and have no fear of betrayal? Dost they not know, that the most sincere are not those who play those fucking mindless games, but those who dare to play this torturous games with cards laid open on the table? Fucking and utter stupidity. By the time the realization sets in, the sands have time have washed away the allure of youth, and each realization will be mark with the wrinkles of age, rendering them irrelevant.

Fuck, just because I resolve to love with all my heart, to give my all to the one that I love, does not mean that I am stupid nor weak. Just because I choose not to play fucking games that hurt peoples hearts does not mean that I am a useless idiot. Fuck, what has this world come to where a soul who seeks a soulmate nothing more and nothing less is condemned to solitude unless it engages in what it deems as nothing more than fucking uncivilized barbaric rituals of inhumane competition? Is love irrelevant in todays world?

I can't speak this to no one, for telling the truth merely leaves me branded as a whiny fuck. But fuck you, for being so childish and immature, for not appreciating the meaning of true love. And I shall not fear, for even if I have to walk this world alone, fuck it, it will be because none are worthy of my love. But dear god, the wonders of this world are too great for one person to take it all by himself. If only there is someone who believes in simple love, if only there is someone who is sick of this fucking games. Is this really too much to ask, holy fucking mother of god please? Please?! I'd love to love you, with all my heart, to walk with you forever, true love, pure and simple, is all we need. But if its another round of those fucking inane games, please, spare me, fuck off, and let me walk in peace, alone.

Frustration

All the thoughts in my head, all the ideas.

The knowledge that time is short.

The monotony of academics, the endless staring at the computer screen.

The urge to break out and take action, to manifest these dreams into reality.

"Don't wait in idleness, for when the youthful hair turns white, grief is empty." - General Yue Fei

An Overview and Possible Solutions to the Problems of Malaysia

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